I believe most of my life consists of dealing with mistakes I’ve made and obstacles I’ve faced. With all the disappointments to be faced in the future I know it will always be a struggle to focus on the happy moments, and to remember why I should care, or why I should continue to try. Especially when I’m not sure what I am working so hard for…to get a job—>so I can have lots of money—> so I can buy things that I don’t need?
I have always wanted more from life than anyone I know has gotten from their own..but maybe that means life only has so much to offer, or maybe it means the people I pitied with ordinary lives have found it.
I am no longer looking to the future for answers and hope, I am just trying to be as productive as possible in each day and trying to appreciate life and all the magical moments within it. I’m not sure what my purpose is, or if I even have one, but each day I will strive to find happiness in the little things, and for now that’s all I need to keep me satisfied. And whatever I was looking for, well hopefully it will find me as long as I keep living life as best as I can.